life sucks and this is why...

deadguysrock86 @ 2006-05-30T11:22:00

2006-05-30T18:31:22Z

why does this always happen? i get to a point in my life where i am happy and content and couldnt ask for more, and then god remembers he doesnt love me and ruins it all.

stupid god.

i just woke up after sleeping for 16 hours. thats sick isnt it?

i miss people, so many people. people i wasnt even really friends with, i see them or their page and i miss them.

steve and i were on the verge of breaking up on saturday. it was so close. my hand was litterally on the door, about to leave for good. then we made up. that was nice. it's still weird though, going from hey we arent meant for eachother to i love you sooo much. i guess it's just our lonely charade. so heres our conclusion:
-we will never get married
-we are going to break up soonish
-we love eachother more then anyone else that we have ever loved
-we hate each other.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-12-19T04:12:00

2005-12-19T12:13:33Z

so i went out with steven bradly today and it was compleatly wonderful. i absolutly adore him. it was the perfect date. drive to the beach, get dinner, watch the sunset. wonderful. perfect. happy. i cant wait to go out again!

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-12-18T03:27:00

2005-12-18T11:30:24Z

tonight was absolutly wonderful.

i'm in like.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-12-03T09:28:00

2005-12-03T17:32:32Z

i'm fucking up my life as well as i can. that is for sure. i havent gone to any class in about 2 weeks now. i have finals in two weeks, and have no idea what we have been doing. shit i dont know. i guess i appreciate staying out late and partying and doing shit that i really shouldnt be doing instead of waking up at 8 and going to class. everyday i go to bed thinking im going to wake up and be a good person and do my shit for the day when i need to, yet when my alarm goes off, i say, not today, maybe tomorrow. then i sleep until 2pm. do you know how unfulfilling your day is when you wake up and have to go to work a couple hours later, then after work, sit and do nothing. eh well whatever. im off to work a 10 hour shift. peace out homefry.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-11-27T23:18:00

2005-11-28T07:20:48Z

as of now, i havent slept in 35 hours. its fun. i nee dto do this more often, maybe not. good weekend, hell good week. i enjoy my friends so much, i am so glad they are in my life, they make everything better and dealable.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-11-18T02:53:00

2005-11-18T10:53:42Z

i love jared, he makes me smile.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-11-05T03:00:00

2005-11-05T11:00:41Z

things arent going the way they should be.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-10-15T18:17:00

2005-10-16T01:18:28Z

haa haa haa haa haa...

no one will ever guess who i slept with... haa haa haa. work is now going to be very akward.. haa haa haa.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-10-12T15:14:00

2005-10-12T22:15:11Z

ATTN: EVERYONE SHOULD GO SEE WAITING!!! it is so funny! i was like about to poo myself! so great!

thats all.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-29T13:35:00

2005-09-29T20:35:51Z

If you read this,
even if we do not speak often,
comment with one memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
good or bad.
Just as long as it happened.
Then post this on your livejournal.
See what other people remember about you...

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-24T19:07:00

2005-09-25T02:07:30Z

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-18T00:20:00

2005-09-18T07:21:18Z

i fucking frucnk and i like ir!

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-11T12:45:00

2005-09-11T19:46:09Z

so there is nothing more gratifying then kissing your exboyfriends friend in front if him.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-10T00:46:00

2005-09-10T07:47:28Z

so happyness isnt knocking at my door now. it never will. i am destined to be loney and sad. thats all.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-04T13:48:00

2005-09-04T20:49:51Z

so... after work yesterday i went to some partu in covina with the jew and jackie. we walk up and it kinda felt like a rape sinareo. four big mexican guys blocking the gate going "hey ladies". i was like oh my, this will be interesting. it was. there was beer, and i was like oh i like beer. im such a pansey, i had 5 and i threw up. whatever, i was drunk. it was nice. i was there till like 5am just talking to the remainder of the people there. they were all nice. thats all. :)

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-09-01T13:53:00

2005-09-01T20:52:05Z

WARNING: Not all frogs turn into princes.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-31T23:31:00

2005-09-01T06:34:18Z

So i have decided that i am done with random guys for now. I'm done with random hookups and random sex. I want to go out on dates with nice boys who wont try to get in my pants right off the start. I want to have the kiss on the second date. I wnat to sit and talk... be friends with him before we do anything. i wnat someone who will play in the rain with me. I want someone who will have a bonfire with me. I need someone new.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-30T23:48:00

2005-08-31T06:47:23Z

I have a crush on a boy.

I'm gunna go dream about our wedding now.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-27T02:20:00

2005-08-27T09:24:29Z

So I am not ready for people to leave my life yet, but it is inevitable. People need to leave to get ahead in life, and make something out of them selves. I can appreciate that, but i don't want to accept that. Why can't it still be the summer when we all had just graduated, yet we were all just strting to experiance what lif eis really like? I never thought we would all have to mov eon so quickly. We are all making adult decisions, some more adult then others. I don't want to accept the fact that we all must grow up now. Why? i don't see a point in it yet.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-21T15:48:00

2005-08-21T22:48:41Z

how this week went:

Monday:started school.

Tuesday: Worked both jobs.

Wedsnesday: School, and night school.

Thursday: Work

Friday:school and work. Then drunken times at steves

Saturday:Work. More drunken times.

Sunday:Work.

wow. i lead a very exciting life dont i?

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-15T22:21:00

2005-08-16T05:23:43Z

I started school today, so thats okay. I'm taking Plane trig, and that teacher is awesome cause she is from romania, and is just aweosme, but it is going to be a boring class none the less. Then i'm taking history 108, so thats just boring, then eng 103, and i love that class, and the teacher is super and i could really enjoy this semester, but that class may be canceled, so that would suck. I'm also taking speech 101, but thats not until wednesday, so i dont know how thats going to be, but i'm excited. This semester isnt going to be as great as last semseter though. sad. I want to add a music class of somesort, but i dont know what to add, and no one will add it with me... so i dont know.

feels weird to be all adultish... i think ilike it.

SAN FRAN TRIP!!!

2005-08-12T15:13:12Z

ATTENTION EVERYONE: Be forewarned, I am going to San Francisco today, and plan to be oh so wasted by the night time. Please forgive me if i drunk dial you!!!! I wont have a computer, so I cant drunk AIM anyone... just a little warning.

Have a great weekend everyone, i know i will!!!

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-11T16:25:00

2005-08-11T23:28:36Z

So I'm very happy to announce that my hair is no longer that ugly orange.... I fixed it, and now it is awesome! I miss weird colors.

Leaving to san fran tomorrow at around 9. LAst call.

call me tonight if ya wanna hang.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-11T03:06:00

2005-08-11T10:14:45Z

AHHHHHH!!! So i came home right now and decided that fixing my little hair problem would be a great thing to do, so i go and look for my bleach, and some one decided to throw it away!!! can you believe that nonsense?? So mad!

So here is how my day went...

Went to pasedena with the dannys. Got a Parking ticket. Lost my ATM card, so now i can't really access my money all that easily... Pshh.

Went to work where i had to actually WORK for my 6.75...

Got off and tried to find someone new to hang out with... no one.

Went to the shop where I hung out 'till closing time...

Went to the wheel with lori and leri.

FOund my newest husband.

Went to dennys.

Now im bored, and at home and have a mild case of insomnia, and cant fix my hair. that sucks.

On a brighter note, I actually have two days off this wekend, so I am going to San Fransisco!!! woo who! I'm excited!

Someone hang out with me.... i need to cuddle right now. I'm lonley.

deadguysrock86 @ 2005-08-08T00:50:00

2005-08-08T07:57:16Z

i have a problem, a big problem. i'm not happy. i lied. how can i be happy when i'm not thouroghly in love? its impossible. i want to cry. i want to lock my self in my room and sit here and go insane. i want to scratch holes in my skin. i want to puul out my hair. i want to tear out my nails one by one. i want to be locked up in a straight jacket ain my own little padded room for all of eternity. i dont want to see anyone happy. i dont want to see you in love. i want to leave. i need to leave. i need to get away. i need to find me someone. i need happy ending. i need a real ending. i dont want this. look at this. im going crazy. i need out. who wants out with me??? please get out with me!!!lets go out! we will travel. we will find soul mates that will love us no matter what. i want to find someone and be friends. i need out.